A new year and new beginnings

Well, here is trusting that 2011 will be better than 2010!  This will be a year that sees us moving to a new home and me moving to a new job, although the details on the latter remain to be seen: corporate counsel, insurance defense, plaintiff's work, general litigation, or tax and employee benefits.

The family is officially devoid of any real estate - we sold our beloved home yesterday to a wonderful woman who will now be close - i.e., around the corner - to her granddaughters.  Meanwhile, we are on the street huddling together for warmth and burning pine cones.  Okay, not really.  We buy our new (permanent? temporary?) home today and take possession in 20 days, while we are not leaving our current abode until early March.  So February will be a month of cleaning, painting, moving, etc., while January is a month of packing and cleaning.

As for the job, I understand that God is in control, that he loves me, and has a plan for me.  But, as Evan Baxter stated in Evan Almighty, "Could you love me less?"  I have been comfortable for the last 5+ years, doing something that I do well but don't particularly enjoy (how can anyone enjoy being a bank attorney or general creditors' rights - it requires one to ignore the plight of those most directly involved).  But God apparently has other plans, which remain unknown to me.  Nonetheless, it is exciting to see what new opportunities will come along.  More precisely, it is nerve-wracking to be reminded that I am not in control of my own life; none of us is.  In my case, it invovled one person deciding that he wanted me to find a new job, despite the fact that (1) I have been the best performing employee at my level , (2) my employer is making gobs of money on me, and (3) few others share his sentiment.

Alas, if ever there were a time to pursue my resolution to make a positive contribution to the world with my life, to pursue a passion, and to better provide for my family, now would be the time.  Here is trusting that the right door will open in the not-too-distant future.

On the plus note, Lecrae's song God is Enough (http://youtu.be/R2MDKibgsfM) has been an encouragement, though it makes my wife wonder about me.  It is a simple reminder that God is indeed enough.  He provides, he is present, he promises, and he protects.  So when life is scary, it is good to remind ourselves that God is enough, knows of our needs, and promises to provide.